God is big enough. Let that sink in for a moment. God is bigger than my problems, my worries, my fears, and all obstacles. He is greater, more majestic, and above all. He is God.
And that should bring me a boatload of hope, right?
Then why do I have so much trouble when it comes to believing? Instead, I find myself worrying once again about stuff. You know. The wake-up in the middle of the night, and there it is.
A movie reel of everything going on in my life. The loved ones who are struggling. The problems at work. Church issues. Health problems. Rolling around and around in my mind until sleep flees.
Stuff.
I don’t have the perfect solution to this problem. I mean, yes, I should pray at that moment and give everything to God and roll back on my side, and slip into blissful sleep.
And that has happened before.
But not very often.
Usually, it’s more of a struggle, wrestling with worry and fears, back and forth, quoting scripture, singing worship songs, talking to God while I fight all the negative thoughts in my brain.
Sometimes, I get up and write in my journal. Or color a picture on my coloring app on my phone, so my focus is totally on the game. Sometimes, I count backwards from 100 to 1 over and over until sleep claims me.
I know God is good, and I know He loves me, and I know He has my back. But I still wrestle at times.
I thank Him often for helping me during these difficult nights, and am so grateful when an evening arrives and rest comes easily.
We can trust God through hope and with faith even when sleep flees.
Now I need to know. What do you do when you are having one of those difficult nights? Please share with me and our readers below in the comments…
